I've been asked a ton about how my marathon training is going by folks at work.
I'm not running Boston this year. I ran it last year because I had promised myself that if a number ever fell in my lap, I would do it. I was fortunately enough to get a 2013 number through Tri-Valley Frontrunners. There are a number of reasons for me to sit this one out. Mainly, I wasn't all that excited to run it again right away regardless of the events and I didn't want to take a number from someone else in my running club who wanted the experience. I'm not fast enough to qualify so I need to get a number through a charity or one of the very limited number through my club.
To be honest, training for Boston through the winter is not very fun as many of my friends will attest. My 2013 training experience was cold and lonely and took a ton of time away from family activities. Most of my marathon race day experience was great and I will do it again but I knew even before the chaos hit that it wouldn't be 2014.
I'd be lying if I said there wasn't fear some fear involved in the decision. I'm not worried about another bombing or anything though the images do occasionally flash back on me while running by myself when I let them. My fear is mostly that my family will be worried about me (even more than usual when running stupid long distances). I'm also slightly concerned (yes, afraid!) about what will go through my head when I next run down Boylston to the finish. I've never been comfortable in crowds and my experience last year has not made me any more at ease.
I have no doubt I'm strong enough and I will do it again some day soon but I think I would really rather spend the day with my wife and kids and celebrate life and the marathon experience with them this year.
I'm incredibly proud of all of my friends who are kicking butt in their marathon training and part of me wishes I was out there logging the miles with you. All of you will do great on race day and I'll be cheering for you.